i break the seal of this very large bottle of resentment...
it's child proof so give me a moment.

i use my teeth to pop the top....
it hurt my teeth and i think of you.

i use my middle finger to fish out the cotton...
it only seems like the right finger given the circumstance.

i rest the bottle in my lap...
its open and there shouldn't be any going back.

i look in at the poison....
it's resentment and i always knew i'd be staring down in this moment.

i take the pills one by one with my eyes closed....
it's my fault i am in this moment and i think of you.

i sit and wait...
it should be any moment now, you would become sick.

i feel my body shutting down...
it doesn't seem to bother you.

i think any moment now you should feel my pain...
it isn't going to happen though.

i realize now a fun fact about my bottle of resentment
it's my poison not yours.

She's the best thing in my life.
I absolutly cannot allow her to see or feel me beat or broken down.
I don't think I will ever find happiness, I'll just strive to maintain hers.

Control Alt Delete

Start up that task manager:
Mother, daughter, sister, aunt, crazy friend, teamate, coworker

all not responding at this point...

all frozen...

all because of what was corrupted:
lover, friend, girlfriend, babymamma, cover up to an affair???

that file was deleted
that file took with it pieces from all that was running so well...

So let's restart:
andale!

before we log in we recharge:
organize our files, scan for VIRUS, and refresh

come along with me on my journey to get all these files up and running
con corazon.